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The reason why I haven't really done anything is because I don't know if I should be back into AutCraft or not. Also if anyone of you posted on my wall on the message I dropped (I assumed it was quite the bombshell) just before I left 10 months ago I never saw any of the responses that I am sure I got. The website got switched over before I could have viewed it. I my joining date on this website is when I finally could have seen that message. I am sure that the responses were good, heart felt and of surprise of me actually not being ok. Me not being able to see any of the responses let me skip the possibility of me reading genuinely concerned feeling comments. I do not know how to handle those comments, I can't just brush them off. They are disconcerting to me. The most memorable time I got put off by heart felt comments was with a sign you people did when I had a grandpa die. So I would be gone for 3 or 4 days for the funeral and I told CasualWolfGamer because we were talking alot at that that time. I assume that CWG talked to or mentioned to someone briefly that I was gone and why. Nethertheless someone played Telephone and in 3 days I got a worrisome sign. On a happy note, you deserve a veterans discount if you know what my banner is. And there is me deflecting the focus away from my problems. I have been asked if I would like with an Admin by an Admin at several times and I have allways decline because they felt like scams to me. One Admin was confused and the best way I could explained it to them this that it felt " not genuine, false, fake, pseudo, sham, bogus." I didn't really see much of a point to naming this confused Admin, it doesn't matter much if I told you who they were or not. Information I would put in these posts are on a need-to-know -basis. There are permutate to me. For example when I got Banned form hide and seek for using the defuncted block glitch. I liked the glitch, it added complexity and a little chaos to the game. I had to post about my ban because people kept asked me to play for about a week and a haft after my banning. Staff would sometime jump on me for even mentioning the word "ban", anything like that I allways found really annoying. I allways roughly said "I got banned" and if asked why I said "I used the block glitch too much." I posted like 5 days later explanted the situation and had to bring up the admin that banned me and would later retract that ban a year-ish later. I never name dropped because A) It was a bad idea. B) It was unnecessary. C) post could have been deleted. D) That Admin would have have gotten black lash from mad people, E) The Admin was just doing their job. I rambled on too much and forgot what my point was in posting, So I guess I am done.